“Why?”,
most people who know me would ask if they ever read this. Especially at this phase of my life when I am doing nothing. To them I'd say,well this is the best time as I have so much of free time to think of everything that I can be bored of in life. Like a job, to start with,probably marriage then kids,old age and the final cherry on the cake,death. Just to think of having to go through all these phases of life gives me ennui.
With a post-graduate degree in English Literature, I'm single,unemployed and an on/off bitch. I live each day as per the dictates of my mighty mood. There is no routine whatsoever, I eat,sleep,read,procrastinate as and when I choose to. Needless to say, I am lazy and very happy at that. I have never held a job in my life and I am 23 years old. If only being an avid dreamer was a full time job.
I am self-obsessed and self-critical to the point of bipolarity. Sometimes I think I'm more a 'thinker' than a 'doer' and I don't see a pressing need to change anything. Yet I know, deep down in my presumably clogged heart that I will be happy and successful someday and things will come as and when they are supposed to. This month I embark on a relatively new journey that clashes against most of my current beliefs and I know which side I have to be on.
This will probably be the first step to all that I am afraid to face in life,but better this than always wondering, “What if?” . With a slight twist I'd like to use the quote, Falling is not failing,failing to get up after you have fallen is failure in the true sense of the word.
So until then I struggle with ennui, for the task before me is mighty and the path ahead is fraught with not only difficulties but also responsiblities with equal chances of both,falling and failing.
most people who know me would ask if they ever read this. Especially at this phase of my life when I am doing nothing. To them I'd say,well this is the best time as I have so much of free time to think of everything that I can be bored of in life. Like a job, to start with,probably marriage then kids,old age and the final cherry on the cake,death. Just to think of having to go through all these phases of life gives me ennui.
With a post-graduate degree in English Literature, I'm single,unemployed and an on/off bitch. I live each day as per the dictates of my mighty mood. There is no routine whatsoever, I eat,sleep,read,procrastinate as and when I choose to. Needless to say, I am lazy and very happy at that. I have never held a job in my life and I am 23 years old. If only being an avid dreamer was a full time job.
I am self-obsessed and self-critical to the point of bipolarity. Sometimes I think I'm more a 'thinker' than a 'doer' and I don't see a pressing need to change anything. Yet I know, deep down in my presumably clogged heart that I will be happy and successful someday and things will come as and when they are supposed to. This month I embark on a relatively new journey that clashes against most of my current beliefs and I know which side I have to be on.
This will probably be the first step to all that I am afraid to face in life,but better this than always wondering, “What if?” . With a slight twist I'd like to use the quote, Falling is not failing,failing to get up after you have fallen is failure in the true sense of the word.
So until then I struggle with ennui, for the task before me is mighty and the path ahead is fraught with not only difficulties but also responsiblities with equal chances of both,falling and failing.
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